“Be careful, your priorities are showing.” That’s a statement I’ve often said. It’s also a statement that I need to remind myself of too.
So often, I get caught up in daily activities that don’t really seem to matter. It’s the call of the urgent, not the needed. And then I go to bed and wonder what I actually got accomplished that day that really mattered. God has been dealing with me about this for awhile. It means I need to have a more structured life. However, I need to be flexible for the things that really do matter to me – like relationships.
I had a wake-up call this summer. My best friend passed away. She only had eighteen day after being diagnosed with cancer, and those days were all spent in the hospital. There was no time for a “re-do”. Summers are always crazy in our family with all the kids going in different directions. I rearranged, and completely dropped out of, several summer commitments so that I could be by her side. There will be another season for my son to take swimming lessons. Or play team sports. Or go on a relaxing vacation. Or even organize after a move. But there will not be another day that I could spend with my best friend. And have no regrets.
That’s another motto I try to write to myself, “Live a life of no regrets.” There’s so, so many things that I wish I could go back in life and make different choices. But I can’t. And dwelling on that will only make me miserable. I have to live each day anew and do the best that I can.
I’m reading a book now (I’ll be sharing in a review next month) that reinforces how I’ve been feeling. Life is short and I need to make sure that the decisions I make (daily) lead me to where I want to end up. My pastor even recently preached about you end up where you are step by step. Lot never planned his life to be the way it ended up but first he set his tent facing the wrong way and soon was inside the gates, etc. Something so innocent can lead to somewhere you do not want to go.
I’m going back to college. I had reached a point to where I felt like I was not doing anything for myself, under-appreciated and unaccomplished. I wanted to finish something. And I wanted to be an example to my kids that showed education is important and you are never too old to learn. Now I’m at the point of only three courses left and I should be graduating next spring. I also finally got the highest paying scholarship I’ve received (having a 3.97 GPA). I was eager to finish and have this behind me. I’m not sure that I will return to the workforce (outside of the home anyway) but I wanted to know that I would be marketable if I need to. And I wanted to check it off my Bucket List.
But now I have a class where I actually have to go to campus to attend. And it’s late afternoon/night. Which means I will miss out on a revival that my church is having this week. And I will miss more than half of my son’s football games this year. This is his last year in school so it will be the last time I can watch him play.
I have prayed about this. I have racked my brain trying to find a way to make everything work. And I’ve made a decision that has given me peace. I will postpone school for a year. I might take one or two of the needed three courses next spring but nothing for now. Faith and family were in my top three priorities. Education wasn’t even in my top ten. Money wasn’t in my top ten. I can’t tell my children to always put God and family first if they don’t see me doing it myself.
I just pray that I am always mindful of my priorities. I want my life to reflect what’s important to me by investing (my time, talents, and money) into my priorities. So always remember – Your Priorities Are Showing.